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Monday, August 23, 2010 2:39 AM

Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons, and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t.

cant let go..

Farewell

Sunday, August 22, 2010 2:33 PM

It's my last day of work in the airport today, heading over to MBS jimmy choo on the 24th this month. ):
Gonna miss my fellow colleagues badly, i'm sure. They have made this 9 months of working life so unforgettable.

Owell, life goes on. Hopefully the people in jimmy choo MBS are as nice, warm and friendly as my gorgeous girls of valiram.

24th, gotta help out with the set up until the official opening on the 27th. I pray hard that sales will be good and hopefully the canteen there sells good food.

It's 5.42am in the morning and i better head to bed now. Probably blog tmr.

xoxo,
FAREWELL T2.

Away from here

Saturday, August 21, 2010 12:48 PM

i'm back! with a new blogskin.. didnt do it on my own though. managed to get it from blogskins.com cause i'm like really sick of my previous skin. So i decided to randomly choose one skin to put it up for the time being.

Gonna be blogging more often again i guess, since i'm gonna be away from my recent beings.

Lots of unhappy events has been going on around me. Unhappy events that probably i myself have caused. Guess getting away will prolly make everyone happier.

Sometimes i wonder, do i really have issues? this recent happenings are making my mind go crazy, really crazy..

Perhaps it's time, time for me to get away from people to think about what is fucking going wrong with my life. I need to make things right. The way my life should be.

I need to learn to stop being so nice, i realised. So what if u're nice to people? you dont get no fucking help in return. -.- SO MUCH for being nice... SIGH.

Now, all i want is just a new chapter to begin with. I need time to tide over this crisis going on in my heart, body, mind and soul.

Here, i just wana apologise to those i've hurt verbally, physically and mentally. I sincerely wish these people all the best and i need to thank them for once being part of my life. to let me learn all these lessons in life. Lessons that'll help and guide me along the way.

I'm done, it's time for me to take my leave and head to bed for a new day tomorrow.

xoxo,

Unbeautiful one.

“She thinks she’s getting better but really, she’s just getting used to the pain.”

Wednesday, June 23, 2010 12:05 PM

It's time for me to start saving, i need to;I MUST. seriously, i did try to write down on what i'm spending on and all but it doesnt seem to work AT ALL. -.-

was chatting with one of my colleagues over the intercom and he's always always nagging at me and teaching me different ways of saving money. i dont need ideas of saving money, i just need to control on whatever i'm spending on.

For christ's sake, i can bring home 1.5k and it just vanishes within less than goddamn 2 weeks! And really, i really dont know where it goes. Last month i had abt 1.7k and i didnt pay my bills, so tell me, where did the fucking money go to? the only thing that can be seen that i spent on is 2 top and one skirt from Forever21. That's it. and just a cheap present for Charlotte D. Other than that, i guess it went to drinks, food, cab, ciggys. Damn! I'm definitely gona cut down on smoking and drinking. It's okay to spend on food though. && i'm only gona take cabs when i'm late or rushing to anywhere.

This month's pay is coming and i have so many goddamn bills to pay. UGHHHH!
Lucky my this month's comm will be better than any other months. GOD BLESS.

XOXO,
money come, dont go.............

11:37 AM

Heard a super bad news early this weds morning.. My future father-in-law's suffering from a weak heart. Hate to see Charlotte D so worried.. I can tell even though he sounds quite calm abt it. :( hopefully nothing critical will happen. I hate it when there's nothing i can do or say to comfort him.
I SERIOUSLY hope when the doctor calls tmr, he'd say "The heart beat is back to normal, no surgery needed, just come back for check-ups once every 6 months.". OH LORD PLEASE!!

I need help with heart-healthy recipes man, seriously. Anyone with any ideas?
I found a recipe online that sounds not bad, but it's like only green beans, tofu and mushrooms in abit of curry paste. -.- healthy but doesnt sound that appetizing, does it? Maybe i'll just give it a try.

I just really really hope for everyone to be healthy. And really really hope future father-in-law will be well soon.

Mixed

Saturday, June 5, 2010 4:53 AM

Im having a contrast of 2 feelings now.
Everything in life seems to be going oh so well for me. That's definitely a happy thing.
Sad because i didnt get to see my brother spin yst. To think i was so bloody excited to rush to powerhouse to see my brother spin after work. In the end, when i reached, everything's over. The feeling was unexplainable. Spoiled my mood for partying totally. Like TOTALLY! ):
Hopefully there's another event coming up when i can see my brother spin.

Anyway, happy thing is i'm transferring from the airport to JIMMY CHOO this coming july. I'm gonna work extremely hard for more money and i MUST start saving money! My pay end of june is gonna be quite alot. and and all the months from now, i'm sure im gonna have alot of commission cos Hardwork really pays leh really! I've said that more than a thousand million times and i'm still gonna say it. :D

I NEED A BETTER FUTURE. I NEED MORE MONEY. I NEED TO HAVE CHARLOTTE! :D

Charlotte's D is amazing. (:

"I'll walk through the maze with you and solve all riddles for you." A reply to my favourite quote, Life is a maze, Love is a riddle. =) Charlotte's D's sweet treat for me. heh!

XOXO,
THE HAPPY ONE.

HAPPINESS

Friday, May 14, 2010 5:53 AM

V8 Movies cafe with bell and jia earlier was shiok! Been how many donkey years since i ever ate their best chicken baked rice know! I didnt order that today though. tried their chicken chop with bacon and cheese, with their own special made gravy. BEST! the bacon and cheese were a bit too salty though.. wah best, i think this 2 off days are one of my most well spent ones.

Yesterday, spent almost the whole day till today afternoon with "Charlotte's D". :)
It's really very extremely nice to lie down to get ready to enter dreamland and get a kiss on the forehead before you really fall asleep and waking up and see your loved one lying next to you. Makes my day for sure. I dont know if it'll be the same after marriage though. Ha. Treasure whatever we have now la hor? no one can tell the future...

He's going to join a new club soon. Higher end clubs.. Age limit is 25 for ladies and 28 for men, i think. I'm somehow kind of worried. Not say i have no confidence but it's always better to be safe than sorry right? I don't want to have to lose "Charlotte's D" to some OL.. ): but i bet no one can be as nice as me....... to him. Well, it's quite tough to find a Xiao Nu Ren in the working world today.. So maybe i shall just rest my case. =/ maybe i should really stop worrying and support his decision in going over to the new club. Like i said no one can predict the future.. If it's meant to be, it will be. If it isn't then continue life just like how it should be. :D think positive!

But honestly, i dunno why i have this urge to faster get married and build my own family. Slowly la hor? No point rushing also. (:

xoxo,
Charlotte's M