The Perfect One Word.

2010-08-23T02:39:00.000-07:00

Sometimes we can fall in love with someone for all the wrong reasons, and still love them even after all the heartache because most of the time, we can’t pick who we love. And even though we know we shouldn’t love them, we do and always will, because there are just some people in our lives who will get to us for reasons we can’t explain, even when they shouldn’t.

cant let go..

Farewell

2010-08-22T14:33:00.000-07:00

It's my last day of work in the airport today, heading over to MBS jimmy choo on the 24th this month. ):
Gonna miss my fellow colleagues badly, i'm sure. They have made this 9 months of working life so unforgettable.

Owell, life goes on. Hopefully the people in jimmy choo MBS are as nice, warm and friendly as my gorgeous girls of valiram.

24th, gotta help out with the set up until the official opening on the 27th. I pray hard that sales will be good and hopefully the canteen there sells good food.

It's 5.42am in the morning and i better head to bed now. Probably blog tmr.

xoxo,
FAREWELL T2.

Away from here

2010-08-21T12:48:00.000-07:00

i'm back! with a new blogskin.. didnt do it on my own though. managed to get it from blogskins.com cause i'm like really sick of my previous skin. So i decided to randomly choose one skin to put it up for the time being.

Gonna be blogging more often again i guess, since i'm gonna be away from my recent beings.

Lots of unhappy events has been going on around me. Unhappy events that probably i myself have caused. Guess getting away will prolly make everyone happier.

Sometimes i wonder, do i really have issues? this recent happenings are making my mind go crazy, really crazy..

Perhaps it's time, time for me to get away from people to think about what is fucking going wrong with my life. I need to make things right. The way my life should be.

I need to learn to stop being so nice, i realised. So what if u're nice to people? you dont get no fucking help in return. -.- SO MUCH for being nice... SIGH.

Now, all i want is just a new chapter to begin with. I need time to tide over this crisis going on in my heart, body, mind and soul.

Here, i just wana apologise to those i've hurt verbally, physically and mentally. I sincerely wish these people all the best and i need to thank them for once being part of my life. to let me learn all these lessons in life. Lessons that'll help and guide me along the way.

I'm done, it's time for me to take my leave and head to bed for a new day tomorrow.

xoxo,

Unbeautiful one.

“She thinks she’s getting better but really, she’s just getting used to the pain.”

$$

2010-06-23T12:05:00.000-07:00

It's time for me to start saving, i need to;I MUST. seriously, i did try to write down on what i'm spending on and all but it doesnt seem to work AT ALL. -.-

was chatting with one of my colleagues over the intercom and he's always always nagging at me and teaching me different ways of saving money. i dont need ideas of saving money, i just need to control on whatever i'm spending on.

For christ's sake, i can bring home 1.5k and it just vanishes within less than goddamn 2 weeks! And really, i really dont know where it goes. Last month i had abt 1.7k and i didnt pay my bills, so tell me, where did the fucking money go to? the only thing that can be seen that i spent on is 2 top and one skirt from Forever21. That's it. and just a cheap present for Charlotte D. Other than that, i guess it went to drinks, food, cab, ciggys. Damn! I'm definitely gona cut down on smoking and drinking. It's okay to spend on food though. && i'm only gona take cabs when i'm late or rushing to anywhere.

This month's pay is coming and i have so many goddamn bills to pay. UGHHHH!
Lucky my this month's comm will be better than any other months. GOD BLESS.

XOXO,
money come, dont go.............

:(

2010-06-23T11:37:00.000-07:00

Heard a super bad news early this weds morning.. My future father-in-law's suffering from a weak heart. Hate to see Charlotte D so worried.. I can tell even though he sounds quite calm abt it. :( hopefully nothing critical will happen. I hate it when there's nothing i can do or say to comfort him.
I SERIOUSLY hope when the doctor calls tmr, he'd say "The heart beat is back to normal, no surgery needed, just come back for check-ups once every 6 months.". OH LORD PLEASE!!

I need help with heart-healthy recipes man, seriously. Anyone with any ideas?
I found a recipe online that sounds not bad, but it's like only green beans, tofu and mushrooms in abit of curry paste. -.- healthy but doesnt sound that appetizing, does it? Maybe i'll just give it a try.

I just really really hope for everyone to be healthy. And really really hope future father-in-law will be well soon.

Mixed

2010-06-05T04:53:00.000-07:00

Im having a contrast of 2 feelings now.
Everything in life seems to be going oh so well for me. That's definitely a happy thing.
Sad because i didnt get to see my brother spin yst. To think i was so bloody excited to rush to powerhouse to see my brother spin after work. In the end, when i reached, everything's over. The feeling was unexplainable. Spoiled my mood for partying totally. Like TOTALLY! ):
Hopefully there's another event coming up when i can see my brother spin.

Anyway, happy thing is i'm transferring from the airport to JIMMY CHOO this coming july. I'm gonna work extremely hard for more money and i MUST start saving money! My pay end of june is gonna be quite alot. and and all the months from now, i'm sure im gonna have alot of commission cos Hardwork really pays leh really! I've said that more than a thousand million times and i'm still gonna say it. :D

I NEED A BETTER FUTURE. I NEED MORE MONEY. I NEED TO HAVE CHARLOTTE! :D

Charlotte's D is amazing. (:

"I'll walk through the maze with you and solve all riddles for you." A reply to my favourite quote, Life is a maze, Love is a riddle. =) Charlotte's D's sweet treat for me. heh!

XOXO,
THE HAPPY ONE.

HAPPINESS

2010-05-14T05:53:00.000-07:00

V8 Movies cafe with bell and jia earlier was shiok! Been how many donkey years since i ever ate their best chicken baked rice know! I didnt order that today though. tried their chicken chop with bacon and cheese, with their own special made gravy. BEST! the bacon and cheese were a bit too salty though.. wah best, i think this 2 off days are one of my most well spent ones.

Yesterday, spent almost the whole day till today afternoon with "Charlotte's D". :)
It's really very extremely nice to lie down to get ready to enter dreamland and get a kiss on the forehead before you really fall asleep and waking up and see your loved one lying next to you. Makes my day for sure. I dont know if it'll be the same after marriage though. Ha. Treasure whatever we have now la hor? no one can tell the future...

He's going to join a new club soon. Higher end clubs.. Age limit is 25 for ladies and 28 for men, i think. I'm somehow kind of worried. Not say i have no confidence but it's always better to be safe than sorry right? I don't want to have to lose "Charlotte's D" to some OL.. ): but i bet no one can be as nice as me....... to him. Well, it's quite tough to find a Xiao Nu Ren in the working world today.. So maybe i shall just rest my case. =/ maybe i should really stop worrying and support his decision in going over to the new club. Like i said no one can predict the future.. If it's meant to be, it will be. If it isn't then continue life just like how it should be. :D think positive!

But honestly, i dunno why i have this urge to faster get married and build my own family. Slowly la hor? No point rushing also. (:

xoxo,
Charlotte's M

ROTTING!

2010-04-25T00:48:00.000-07:00

I slept freaking 12hours or more, damn shiok but it never feels enough. Never ever enough.
Hate feeling tired all the time leh! I seriously need a short getaway real soon. Any sponsors? i gotta wait for another goddamn month before i can plan for a holiday. -.-

Why is it everytime when i'm at home trying to recuperate, i always crave for all kinds of food? And always feeling hungry! I just freaking ate like 2 bowls of yong tau foo and im still wanting to eat some more food. fat lehhhhhh!
I'm supposed to lose 5 kg and i think it's seriously gonna be damn tough.

Ughh, back to work tmr. I hope i sell like a chopard watch or smth so can boost my energy. And i have work at the pub after. ANOTHER TIRING DAY! so i better stay home to rest as much as i can today.

and and, I'm so busy with work, i wont be able to see my bf till thurs! Better busier, seriously! ): wa lau, 4 days leh..... SIGH! Hopefully absence makes his heart grow fonder. :D

Sharon and i might plan to go for a taiwan trip in sept if i can manage to save 1k for 1 week in taiwan within these few months. quite tough though. still gotta go for a short getaway with my bf during june. Seriously, have to work doubly hard for more moneyyyyy!!

xoxo,
THE HARDWORKING ONE.

food!

2010-04-22T20:58:00.000-07:00

I can't wait to learn how to cook the sauce for my bi's garlic butter lemon mussels!
This sat, hopefully the sauce will turn out to be the same as fish and co's.
I seriously need to learn how to make more dishes, to be a good housewife and mother. :D

"The best way to get to ur bf's good books is through the taste buds and stomach!"

<3,
The lovely housewife. :))

babyyyy

2010-04-21T05:51:00.000-07:00

I want a kid so badly now.
And I don't mind a baby girl.

And obviously I only want to name her charlotte. :D

FATED

2010-04-21T03:08:00.000-07:00

My blog has been dead for so long. Too busy and too lazy to post anything on my blog anymore.
Until my bf told me he was reading my blog den i decided to post something. Cause i'm very sure he'll start talking abt my blog posts. :p

Okay, whatever i've posted is in the past. Now it's present and future. So i hope my old blog posts can be forgotten.

Does anyone ever believe in fate? Well, for now i do.
I hope fate will last, this time. It feels good that someone who was once so dear to me, is back. After 5 years. Seriously, i never expected things will turn out this way. In fact, things seem so much better now. I guess growing up makes a lot of difference..

Come to think of it, i've been trying to make my new relationships work, but seems to me that there's none that i can adapt to, all turn out to be either losers or just those that i seriously cannot live with. it's true when they say 舊愛還是最美.

I hope this stays forever.

P.S, i love you for who you are and i believe i've loved u all these while.

<3,
Charlotte's Mum

TRUST

2010-03-16T01:23:00.000-07:00

"Now i know i missed the best, you were the best i ever had.
I let you down in the worst way, it hurts me every single day."

I've finally realised that no one, no one else can ever be compared to him.
I'm falling back to square one. I just want to start all over again and not be like how i was in the past.
All i need is just a second chance to earn back the trust and love.

I want you back.

Search

2010-01-25T12:33:00.001-08:00

I need to find myself, I feel like i don't even know myself anymore.

Insecurity

2010-01-12T20:19:00.001-08:00

Have u ever wondered how anyone can be so willing to give just because they care for you? Love tells it all. Sometimes i really wish i could turn back time and not do the things i've did to hurt those people who really loved and cared for me.

Reminiscing the past, makes me feel like crap. How could i even bring myself to cheat on someone so dear to me? Now, regretting doesnt help in anything. All i can do now is really just to change and stick to 1.

The problem now is, i'm not even sure if this 1 will stick to 1. (if you get what i mean). Like, i'm seriously willing to be in a serious relationship but i have doubts. I don't want to get hurt. I seriously believe in Karma, so............ Damn, it's so freaking confusing. To put my whole heart into it, or not? I need assurance, but i dont seem to be getting any.

Sometimes being a flirt ain't that bad right? At least a player won't get hurt. And who doesn't hate getting their hearts broken? But at the same time, i'm a girl. being a player, the one who loses out is me. True?

My past relationship has taught me alot. I really need to listen to him and really cherish myself. But seriously, all i ever needed in a relationship for me to stay long is assurance. At the same time, i don't like that much of assurance. Contradicting, yes i know. I need challenges in a relationship but i hate the feeling. Wtf am i even thinking?! I guess i don't even know myself.

Maybe i'm not sure abt this relationship. He's not making me feel like staying. Because there are just too many fucking girls around him. (though their looks and boobs can't be compared to mine). LOL. but still, i feel so fucking insecured. I'm not trying to be a bitch by saying i'm pretty la.. Just that i feel, i look so much better. -.-

I'm affected by the things he does, All the phone calls when i'm around? talking like the sweetest person i've ever seen to girls on the line? How to not be affected? I'm supposed to be tolerating it because his job requires him to do this sorta "talking-sweetly-to-colleague-and-customer" thing. Seriously, i don't see a need to talk sweetly to his colleague what! customer still can understand. And sweetly means flirting?

What if i do the fucking same thing to him? He wont feel secured also what. It goes both ways, right? Maybe i should stop rejecting my ex's call when i'm with him. I should just FLIRT with whatever guys that call me. But still, im not that childish to be doing all of that la! I can always leave if i can't tolerate but i dont know, i somehow see this relationship working out well in the near future. "okay, i know i always feel this way.".

I just want to stop fucking changing partners all the time. I want to really find someone i can grow old with. "i know i'm only 21 but so what? I've seriously played enough, met my fair share of bastards and i'm seriously sick and tired of wanting to start a new relationship.".
Too early to be thinking of marriage? i dont think so.

I think i've blabbered enough for today.

XOXO,
The one who's feeling insecured.

CHRISTMAS EVE

2009-12-23T12:49:00.000-08:00

Tonight's gonna be a good good nigghht...........
First, A merry christmas eve to all! I'm awake in the wee hours of the morning cause i gotta work on a christmas eve. =/

Tonight i'm having a house party at place, so after work i gotta like rush back to bake my pie! Im gonna be so goddamn tired during the party! ):
Well, Hopefully the alcohol can perk me up.

Okay so, i'm already planning for new years' eve countdown, even though i can't do fucking anything. TOUGH LUCK, i gotta be stucked at work during the new years' countdown. DAMN! Anyway, my big brother is gonna be DJ-ing with DJ Koflow for NYE at siloso beach. I really wanted to go and see him dj live! Can u believe i've nvr seen him turning the table on stage before?! Cept for the time i saw him with his band, chou pi jiang, when i was like 12? HAHA.

okay, my taxi's here. Blog ssooooonnn

Bdayyyyyyyyyyy!!

2009-12-17T20:35:00.000-08:00

3 more days to my 20th bday. I seriously cannot wait for crazy drinking session tmr!
I seriously need alcohol ASAP!

And obviously i cant wait for the house party on christmas eve! OMG. Love the holiday season!

I've been so busy with work and all, all i need now is like a bloody holiday. And im actually gonna have like 4 days of leave! Imagine the amount of alcohol im gonna have! HAHA.

i love the life i'm having now, LIKE TOTALLY.

C,
u know u have me whenever u need me. Pls dont let anyone bring u down. Even if they do, I'm here to bring u up again. HAHA.
LOVE!

xoxo,
Juliet. =P

Flyers

2009-10-31T04:43:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the very first time i actually felt suprised. Like really really didnt expect anything like that to happen.

Was supposed to meet sherminator for dinner at the Sg flyers, so i thought like he really wanted to eat the popeye chicken. At first i was thinking, "why must purposely go there to eat?". and so, i asked him is there gonna be any unknown surprises? I did suspect for like 2 mins then he said he just had cravings for the popeye chicken. So okay, went to meet him without thinking he'll come out with any surprises and of course, in my usual timing, i was late. What's new? -.-

We stood at the counter, i asked him what he wanted to eat? In the end, he didnt even order the chicken and while waiting for our order, he took out 2 tickets from his front pocket. At first i was thinking, what are the cards for?! haha. Yes, i was as blur as usual. Then i starting my awwww-ing. And we had to like rush just because i was late. Like no wonder he asked me not to be late. He even gave and excuse saying, "i'm afraid the popeye's place close.". And i actually believed. -.-

It was damn sweet la. Might sound very wtf in this post but i tell you, the feeling i had was..... priceless. I've never been given any surprises before, not even once in my 20 years.

Bi, if you're reading this, really, i need to thank you for loving me so much. (: but please stop making me eat SO MUCH. TYVM!

xoxo,
Amelia .P

=/

2009-10-22T02:49:00.000-07:00

Finally after 12 days, i'm home. I realised i haven't been coming home more than twice to sleep for the past 2 weeks. And now that i'm home, i feel like going back to clementi. ):

I guess it's only normal for new couples? I hope it stays this way forever. Like really really wish it'll be this way always..

Now i'm like dying to see my sherminator......... this feeling sucks..

You're my sweetest drug.

LIFETIME

2009-10-20T00:35:00.000-07:00

I've found my happiness,

Hopefully it stays this way forever. =D

DONTSPEAK

2009-09-22T01:10:00.000-07:00

i'm beginning to bottle up more nowadays. Everytime when i feel like telling anyone my feelings, i can't seem to get it out of my throat. And i seriously dont feel good. I may look happy everyday but i dont think i really am. =/

i want to be happy......................................

2009-09-16T02:15:00.000-07:00

My today's horoscope says "Friends and associates come back around and are suddenly and unexpectedly on your team instead of being on your back. You may find that they are anxious to make up for past indiscretions, or have ideas for improving their relationship with you.".

DAMN TRUE. Tell me how to not believe in horoscopes??

You know, i'm really enjoying my single life like ALOT. been having so much time for myself and my friends. TILL i find someone better i think. if anyone is willing to give me a better life. haha.

i look so good (without you).

_|_

2009-09-12T05:47:00.000-07:00

this is called wasting time? i think i'm fucking wasting even more time. -.-

Seriously, what's wrong with older man? I really don't freaking understand what they're even thinking. Okay, maybe it's just 1 older man that i dont understand. I swear i've had enough of that someone telling me "i don't like wasting time." over and over again. Like just, FUCK OFF. -.- I've more important people to attend to and more important stuff to do. ughh, fucking spoil mood. CCB.

HK

2009-08-28T10:02:00.000-07:00

It's 1am and i'm not asleep even though my flight to HK is like 8.30am... -.- Just because i need to get my psp back now. I'm fucking tired......

Many shits going on in my life now and i seriously need to get it back to normal. I know i caused most of it on my own but, guess thats how life goes. I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. SO many shits happening till i lost my excitement in going to hongkong. makes me just want to stay here in singapore to face all of it til it's over..

I'm gonna miss alot of people and i wont feel secured when i'm over in HK. fuck siol. I really just want to be happy, so difficult meh?

My dearest shortie. WAIT FOR MY RETURN. We'll party till the lights turn on. THEN i can be at least a little happier.

Yesterday.

2009-08-24T00:03:00.000-07:00

Played 3 rounds of MJ. ALL THE WAY from 8pm till 6am. Damn shiok, i tell you.
Even though i didnt win BUT still... I think if any one of us gets an apartment, definitely will turn out to be a gambling den. lol.

5 MORE DAYS TO HONGKONG.
i can't wait. i cant wait. i cant wait. i cant wait. i cant wait. i cant wait...............
OMG..

haven't packed my luggage yet though.. looking at my clothes doesnt make me want to pack. BUT things will be different when i come back from my shopping getaway. cb, REALLY CANNOT WAIT LEH..............

i better stop before i get even more excited.

Ratchada

2009-08-23T00:49:00.000-07:00

Ratchada's not bad though i only went for abt 1 hr plus.. Went yesterday for willy's early bday celebration. (: was wondering why there aren't any sofas ard though.. Perhaps if i was abit more high on alcohol, the place would seem better. hah.

My smart dog bit me a while ago, just because i was trying to get some small toothpaste cover out of its mouth. AND NOW, my finger's hurting like mad. My mum was like 'AIYO, need to go see doctor or not ah?'. Like machiam my dog got disease.. HAHA. it's been a long time since i felt so much concern leh... :D

I'm so fucking bored now, i can type a composition..
CRYSTAL LIEW, faster wake up and call me...
My hands itchy for Mahjong!!!

SIAN

2009-08-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

I've lost patience. I'm almost giving up.
I don't even want to hope anymore.

I LOST 2 KG! How great is that?! haha. Losing 2 kg is easy, i finally realised.
Not taking supper seriously does make me lose weight.
and who says alcohol is fattening? Getting high and wasted makes me lose cravings.
SO, i shall drink till i get wasted every single day!

and, i'm so proud of myself.. I ate like a packet or mi hun soto for one whole entire day.
the feeling's damn shiok leh. I'm definitely gonna keep it up! (:

Tolerance and patience, both have limits.

HOW!

2009-08-14T04:26:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder if we've feelings for each other still..
Or is it just for the companionship?

I HATE THIS FEELING.

Bulldog...

2009-08-10T00:39:00.000-07:00

I've been neglecting my blog for quite long. always can't seem to find mood to type anything, so pardon me. (:

been very busy working once again, as like always in the past. Got to earn lots of money for shopping in HK this end of the month! Can't wait siol...... thats what i hate abt booking air tickets early. Make me crave to go like NOW! this explains why my genting trips are always so last minute, somehow. haha.

This new place i'm working at, is like another home. I feel so comfy until, i might not even stop working after my trip to HK. Best place to be at, so much better than the VIVA now. At least the mouse's working, the toilet's not spoilt. VIVA can seriously go suck thumb.

been gg to E!hub with shortie to revive child times. arcade still is so fun after so long.... i wonder why nobody hang around arcades anymore. lol. like us in the past. =x

Finally, jesslyn's back from sydney and we can go back gyming together. fucking fat siol, weighed myself yst on this machine for weighing luggage at the airport. I BETTER STOP EATING MAN! before i reach the REALLY FAT weight...

Lobbing

2009-06-20T21:44:00.000-07:00

I am very very very addicted to prawning. And i realised i'm spending alot on prawning.. -.-

Tried lobbing(catching lobsters) yesterday and ended up catching about 10 sea water prawns. 45 bucks for 10 sea water prawns? Not worth it. Didn't even bother to go count actually. Quite sick and tired of eating prawns, be it sea water or clear water. :D try eating prawns everyday, see whether you'll get sick not.. Felt quite disappointed cause for a min i actually thought it was easy to catch lobsters when i dont even get to see 1 caught. Not even the people around us caught any lobsters.. Must be cause they damn stingy. OH YES, THEY OBVIOUSLY ARE! 3 hours, not even once they put in any prawns or lobsters. wtf right?! Anyway, i think i'll try for another time, if it disappoints me again, i'll just stick to prawning in bishan for clear water prawns. or maybe try pasir ris farmway's pond.

I've been doing nothing these days except spending more and more money. So i decided, since i'm so free den why not try for my o's again? at least i got about 1 and a half years' to study on my own. make use of the free time while spending time with my bf. :D AND i still have to say, it's really amazing how we can maintain this relationship so well. No doubt we have quarrels once in a while(week). haha. 2 yrs plus leh, and still going strong. Seriously, i think i've finally found a different me. LOL. I used to change boyfriends like once in maybe 2 months or lesser? Love is really amazing.

Finally, my curry bun's here. Update soon.....

xoxo,
too free

2009-06-09T02:14:00.000-07:00

been very addicted to prawning for months already. (: and for the first time me and jesslyn caught like 45 prawns. fucking alot okay! The both of us had to barbeque and finish ALL the 45 prawns with no help. haha.
I NEED MY ROD LAHHH!

Tonight prawning again.. AND i really need crystal to call me. I NEED MY ROD..

2009-06-04T13:58:00.000-07:00

Recently, i've been very addicted to the tv serial drama, HOUSE. Hugh laurie is damn hot in the show. If you haven seen it, catch this monday's episode at 9pm on AXN. I think they're celebrating their 100th episode on AXN. I bet you'll fall in love with Hugh laurie(Dr. Gregory House), like how i did. =x I'm gonna get the season 1's dvd of House. fucking addictive!

I've not been catching much sleep nowadays. Got to wake up early in the afternoon for gym sessions and i only get to sleep earliest at about 6 in the morning. I seriously got to get my body clock back to normal.... IF NOT, i think i'll faint while working out.

Love's been really busy thinking of new ways to earn more money so we can live a better life. =DD
I NEED A HOLIDAY LA SIAL..............

p.s. I'M GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT IN 3 MONTHS TIME!

xoxo,
need more sleep.

funeral - mcys

2009-05-25T14:39:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to share this video cause i find it very meaningful and touching.
and i have to agree, beautiful imperfections do make a perfect relationship.

(:

XOXO,

Pricks like thorn

2009-05-23T03:09:00.000-07:00

Why do people have to grow old? ):

was playing with cash's ball with my daddy and cash. laughed like mad till suddenly my daddy said, "i can't see the ball until it comes nearer to me"(with his specs on). i tell you, straightaway my heart felt like dying. i suddenly felt so darn useless. i think he's having a cataract in his eye.. and maybe he didn't have the money to go remove it or maybe he just didnt dare to go for the operation. i don't even dare to ask him anything. useless anot u tell me? i want to help but i don't know how to.

there was even once when i asked him to walk faster.. but he couldnt and he said " i'm 60 yrs old already know, not young anymore.". at that point of time, i wished i didn't ask him to walk faster. I seriously feel like @%#@!*&^$!!!

i think i should talk to him about it one day.. finding the right day and guts to do so.
and i seriously have to talk to him more often. i realised, i've been neglecting him quite alot. Sighhh.

this feeling sucks.

2009-05-21T13:52:00.000-07:00

You delight me with you laughter
You enchant me with your smile
You give me special love,
That makes everyday worthwhile

:DD

2009-05-12T04:33:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,

-watched wolverine again with twin and jiemei.
-Sabai-ed with jesslyn, yawen and my bf.
-Supper with bf at simpang.

Wanted to catch 17 again but thanks to trav and bell, i had to watch wolverine again. -.- hah. actually watching movies in cinemas are really much better than dvds.

Sabai yst wasn't as boring as last sat (: me and jesslyn alone finished almost a full bottle of martell. LOL. And sabai seems to be getting more fights nowadays. -.-

TONIGHT,
-going to watch movie with love.
-prawning with jesslyn and love. (:

More photos coming up.

Tampines One

2009-05-06T05:11:00.000-07:00

Tampines One's like one of the best Shopping Malls for me.
Convenient and almost all of my needed shops are in tampines 1. (:
BEST, i tell you. I swear i'll patronise all the restaurants..

Today,
I bought 2 sling bags(1 for my mum) from S.T. Louis at a discounted rate
of 40percent and 50percent for the 2nd item. Original price $118 for 1 bag.
Shiok la the sale!! Can u imagine how much i spent the whole day.. from shopping
to grocery shopping and food.. Less than fucking 200bucks. (: Oh, and i ate at this
japanese restaurant that serves like Marche.. NICE! It's called manpuku or smth.
So much more worth it then spending in sakae sushi.. Me and my mum ate till we couldnt
walk and i only spent 55bucks. Worth it! Cheap cheap cheap...................

We even walked pass this chinese restaurant, Dian Xiao Er, Checked out the price.
38bucks for a 4 course meal for 2 pax. CHEAP RIGHT! plus they serve herbal duck and
some of their specialities in the 4 course meal. FUCKING worth it.

I think i'll end up shopping and eating there anytime i feel like. I'll give up going to town. (:

xoxo,
Tampines 1 mall lover.

2009-05-05T04:04:00.000-07:00

HELLO EVERYONE,
I'M A VERY VERY VERY HAPPY WOMAN TODAY!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Ok, i didnt know how to express my happiness.
So i decided to just type it out. LOL.
wanna know why i'm so very happy?

BECAUSE,
i finally got my AGNES B. wallet... !!!!!!
im even happier because, my beloved bf loves me so very much. (:
AND i'm even more happier because i have friends who will
be happy for me! HEHEHE.

JIEMEI, Our lives like so much merrier now hor?
I feel so relieved. At least we have nothing to hide from
OUR loved ones anymore. (:
LOVE YOU!

I really wonder how people can live happily
without being honest to their partner.... TSK TSK.

P.S. i dont want to hate anyone, not even for a minute because
i'll be wasting 60 seconds of happiness. (:

xoxo,
CLEAN CONSCIENCE.

Lunar

2009-05-03T02:34:00.000-07:00

Thank you viva for letting me know such nice, fun-loving people.
(:

Guess the number of lychee martinis we drank..
plus 2 bottles of martell.
15 glasses! actually okay la, not alot. HAHA.
Amazingly, i wasnt even high. Guess the running and
jumping around helped alot. (:

Pole dancing damn hot la.
AND Lunar is really not that bad after all. (:

I'm getting a camera soooooonn...
Finally i can blog with more pics now.

xoxo,
Life's good.

2009-04-30T01:28:00.000-07:00

I suddenly lost all mood to open shop nor get a rent from food franchises.
Reason being, food franchises too ex and i don't have interest in clothes business.

So, I shall just work for my bf.
I've given up drinking everyday, no more working in nightlife.

Genting next week! FINALLY, a short getaway with love.
And i'm finally getting my own camera. a new bag and a new wallet from
my favourite brand. I swear i'm gonna collect the whole bloody collection.
At least i dont crave for prices that i cant afford.. (:

Lunar yst was quite fun. (: Pictures up soon...

xoxo,
AGNES B. FAN

2009-04-27T13:08:00.000-07:00

Im having stomach flu and the pain's killing me big time. -.-

Beloved,
I have to thank you for always being there for me, always.
No doubt, i've been neglecting you and always not there for you.
We'll change things. NOW that our root of problems are gone,
I believe things will be better. (:

Love's been too nice, too nice for me to even do anything wrong anymore.
TELL ME, who the fuck can be like him siol. Im such a whore, slut, whatever
bad names you can think of..
But now, things are definitely gonna change. No more cheating, no more leaving.
Looking forward to a short getaway soon with love.. (:

Viva's tiring me out but the thought of how much i'll get by end of this week,
Is making me stay on.

Online shop's coming up soon.
Found someone who can help me big time with the factories.
(: I gave up thinking of opening a shop.
Might be taking over food franchises. Subway probably? (:

I'M A HAPPY WOMAN!!!!

Dear penis

2009-04-25T04:17:00.000-07:00

For guys and their penises. LOL. fucking hilarious.

Rodney Carrington's the man!

2009-04-24T21:54:00.000-07:00

I've finally decided to step out of a friendship that has got me more problems that i have ever had.
True enough, Now that i really sit back and think.. There may be happy times but without this friendship,
i could be happier. For the past 1 year, i haven't been myself. Life back then was so much different, i
could live everyday happily without having to think if anyone would stab me in the back and deny.

True friends advice and support. True friends dont just say, "fuck it la.".
and true friends are those you can trust and not worry about being gossipped about.
I just realised, i've nvr felt that way in a longggg timeee.

I'm pissed, at the same time, upset and disappointed.
The truth is there, no point denying, Crystal. I'm sorry if this blog post has to be aiming at you.
But i cant find another way to vent my frustrations.

Crystal, do you know.. U caused many problems to everyone's lives..
I drifted from someone so dear to me cause of you. You cant be so selfish as to have everyone to yourself, right?
I think thats why you came up with the "making out" story,right?. -.- What do you gain from adding pain and
lies to people's lives?
I was blind to believe you and trust you all these while.

Dont you think you should do something about ur character
before you totally have NO friends? I mentioned character because, i think u hurt people unknowingly. That, i think
U have to find out whats wrong with a psychiatrist. Im not being offensive.. but i seriously think that if you dont
know that you've been lying about so many things, den there's a very big problem and you should find a solution to it.
And for your info, about the trav;s house thing. You did say you got alot of things to talk to her about before we
went over to her place. U could even lie in my face.. DONT YOU THINK THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG with you? I didnt say
anything, because i didnt wan to add in to your problems and because i didnt wan to get involved. Why keep wan to bring me
in to cover up for you? Continue denying if you wish. Cause we know whats real and whats not.

I cheated on my bf, i didnt need you to open your big mouth to tell him cause eventually we'll talk about it.

"Why would i tell him, knowing he will confirm tell you, you think i so stupid meh?".
My bf kena cheated, still want to lie to me abt this for what? LOL. i think you're even more stupid to deny.

-.-

Now, i know i sound fucking offensive but i think someone has to wake you up from your
compulsive-never-go-through-your-brain lies. U know yourself. you know what you did

-.-

2009-04-24T02:14:00.000-07:00

Same old shit going on again.
When will it ever end siol..

I'm sick of getting suspicious over true or not true friends.
Many things have happened and i guess..
I know what i should and should not do.
THIS WORLD AIN'T REAL. NOBODY IS.
I'm sick of trusting myself, and getting disappointed.

Sad to say, i've decided to block the word "trust" in my
dictionary.

p.s
Thank you love, for giving me chances over and over again.

Universal Love

2009-04-22T01:57:00.000-07:00

I've been extremely lazy to blog nowadays..
Cant seem to find the time and mood to blog abt anything.

Well, I left my day job as everyone expected.. and now,
Im back in viva for 2 weeks. To earn that extra cash..

Shortie and I are planning to open a shop but we have to gain some
experience first, so we're gonna start an online shop first then if it
suceeds then we'll start a shop on our own. Oh and, together with Amanda!
I can settle the accounts while the both of them can go and think abt the clothings.
The 2 fashion consultants. haa.
Hopefully we'll make it. (:
Support k? Will Update on the webby and all.

I guess it's always better to be your own boss than to work for others.. (:
I've failed in almost everything.. But i want to believe that i'll not fail anymore.
I'll definitely put in my best to make universal love succeed!

Look out for these faces on magazines and the papers k?!
"The youngest, successful girls in the clothing industry."

First day of work

2009-04-06T14:52:00.000-07:00

Okay, my first day of work sucked, big time.

1. I was left alone to do nothing from 10 to 3.
Minus off my 1hr of lunch time.

2. Nobody was around to guide me at all. Only joanne,
and she's only a rookie. How the fuck is she gonna guide me?

3. My first day of work, i cant even talk properly and they actually
asked me to give out flyers and pull customers up before i can go.
Not as if i don't have leads right?! And guess the time we left to give
out flyers? Fucking almost 8pm and it's almost impossible to bring anyone
up after office hours right? ok, i know it's my job to do that but at least
give me a chance to learn and show what im worth of right!

Anyway, i left and they called me back for negotiation. Very well,
I shall open up to my opinions and see if they willing to accept.
Thanks to a friend of mine, I think California Fitness needs my contacts badly.
SO i shall play hard to get.
HAHA. -evil smirk-

Think i'll go back next week if we can come to a deal with my opinions
tomorrow. (: I DOUBT you'll ever see me giving out flyers. lol.

If you're wondering if im interested in this job, I am. Just dont like to
give out flyers. -.-

xoxo,

The evil one ;)

Sabai on diff days..

2009-04-04T22:39:00.000-07:00

The unglam version of 许慧欣 look-alike. lol

These are photos of last week's sabai days. 3 days in one week, i think.
AND, finally, i got a day job.
Yesterday's my last day in viva. (:
Thanks everyone for celebrating with me yst at viva,
though i left early. HAHA.
Shall blog agn when i have the mood. BYE

California fitness

2009-04-01T23:36:00.000-07:00

I'm finally saying GOODBYE to nightlife!!
After 4 yrs of destroying my liver... FINALLY...
Im gonna be a fitness consultant.. Hopefully.
Going for my interview later.
WISH ME LUCK PEOPLE! (:

):

2009-04-01T02:33:00.000-07:00

不追问到底为什么
是我最后的温柔
想笑着附和说分开是好的
但我们却怎么一起哭了

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我是微笑的
亲爱的有你牵著我的那些日子
真的好快乐

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得
只是该停了
没有我你要好好的

我舍不得
最后一次抱紧你了
我们错过的
错了就错了
不用担心我
..我..走..了..

you could be happier w/o me.
):

ball

2009-03-29T04:10:00.000-07:00

Cash aka BALL.
hahahahahahahaha.

i was laughing like some mad, retarded person when i saw
this pic. super look like ball la! ha.

Sabai-ed yesterday. pictures to be uploaded soon.

2009-03-27T22:19:00.000-07:00

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all
To have just one more night with you
I'd risk my life
To feel your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all
For your love tonight

Baby, can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

Love,

12 yrs

2009-03-24T04:12:00.000-07:00

12 years and more to come.
Thou we have many differences but,
we've been thru more together than anyone else
has ever been. Grew up together, from bad to good,
to whatever you can think of.

True Friendships last forever.

2009-03-22T05:50:00.000-07:00

We do look a little alike dont we?
Our baby pics are like printed faces. Will post it up after i scan it.

Was browsing thru my bro's myspace and i just
couldnt stop thinking, "oh my god, thats my brother."
(yes, again)
Look at me and look at him, we may have our
similarities but he's definitely much better than me.
He made a career out of something he loves.
And is known for it.
If u ever wondered why i keep posting pictures of him,
it's cause i'm really proud to have my brother as my idol.
My motivation to do better in life.

SINGLE LIFE

2009-03-22T05:14:00.000-07:00

I look skinnier in the above picture, dont i? HAHA.

Dont you think i look happier now?
it's like a sigh of relief all of a sudden.
I'M SINGLE.
but
unavailable.

and HURRAY! I'm finally cutting down on my food.
SEE A SLIMMER ME IN 3 MONTHS TIME!
JUST YOU WAIT.

too late

2009-03-21T00:26:00.000-07:00

"All these while, you've been telling me that you love me more,
and you actually made me believe that..
But.. after the conversation this morning, than i realised,
I've given more than you think i gave. We quarreled over the
same stuff over and over again. I kept telling you that you've
neglected my feeliings but you always nvr kept it in mind.
Now, it's too late for you to even realise that i've been giving
more than you ever expected. Im the one who deserves more.
You've been taking me for granted, but it's too late to make
amendments. It's too late."

i loved you.
BUT
i cant anymore.

THE END

2009-03-20T01:10:00.000-07:00

I've finally found the courage to give up, to let go.
It hurts deep down but i guess, i have to live with it.
All these 2 years, i've been happy being with him
but there's always been a barrier.

I've learned, i've grown.
Time to learn to pick myself up

2009-03-19T06:02:00.000-07:00

BACK FROM BINTAN!
bintan was great. it's seriously like a getaway for me and crystal.
Dont you think it's damn stressing to stay in sg?
Well, pictures will be up as soon as i get it.

Now, im at work and im missing cash like mad!

Another bangkok getaway sooooonnnnn.

SEE YA LATER.

2009-03-16T02:23:00.000-07:00

I think i'm falling down, down down down.

With a bad case of love, love love love.

I think i'm faling for you, you you you.

I think i'm falling in love.

it's been 2 days and im missing you alr.

2009-03-13T20:56:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to hate.
I need a break.
Someone pls tell me, why is time so damn important in a r/s?

I gotta stop hating ur wife and sons.
or
i seriously think, i need to give up.

I want to think of marriage and kids.
I cant live this way for the rest of my life.
i have to stop lying to myself.
someone, plsss take me away from all this pain and agony

2009-03-07T03:29:00.000-08:00

Realising how much you need somone so badly in your life
sucks big time. The worries you'll feel, the thought of getting
your heart torn, aint a nice feeling at all. Especially when you
wake up from a terrible nightmare and realise it's all not just
a dream. It seems so real to the extent that you might or might
not face the same thing in reality.

I'm afraid. Afraid of losing e

2009-02-23T01:16:00.000-08:00

I recieved a piece of happy news, the first thing i got up.
Best way to start a day. (:
My dj brother's gonna be a father!
Fucking happy..
I'm gonna be an auntie.....
My niece/nephew is definitely gonna be proud of
his/her father. (: just like how i'm proud of my brother.
My mum's like calling the whole world,
to tell them the good news.
like people will bother? -.-
but.. still, i understand my mum's feeling la.
Normal right? finally her dream came true.

Now it's to me. My 2nd brother's getting married too..
So now her happiness is somehow channelled to me.
Now i hatle down.
No way la. I can n

2009-02-21T00:46:00.001-08:00

Love's gone away from me for 3 whole days,

for business trip w/ his other gf(daniel).
):
Lucky thing, 3 days is over and he's coming
back tonight! (:

This 3 days would have seemed long without
the person in the above pictures.
The person that always adds
Colours To My Life.
Thank you. (:

2009-02-21T00:39:00.000-08:00

Dont you find it comical when someone says,
"I dont know how to eat this."?

I find it absolutely ridiculous cause,
Isnt it easy for someone to eat something?
It's either you chew or swallow it what right?!

okay, i know

Random

2009-02-18T03:46:00.000-08:00

Can u eAnd does anyone want a taste of my mum's
ABALONE W/ CABBAGE IN OYSTER SAUCE?!

yummehhhhhh

Maxims Suite

2009-02-18T00:57:00.000-08:00

Finally, my maxim suite pictures can be uploaded. (:
First time i e

..

2009-02-15T04:57:00.000-08:00

a pity my laptop's kinda slow now,
so i cant upload my maxim suite pictures. ):

Pictures will be uploaded soon.

Work yesterday was almost killing me.
Full house yst, not bad for a saturday. (:
Good thing, most of the tables are like my customers.
So i wasnt that bored. I was dead tired after work,
almost seemed like i was working alone.
OH WELL, That always happens, nothing's new.
tough luck.

V'day is just like any other days. E was spent well.
Especially with that suite we stayed in. ALL'S WELL.
That's what i call being fortunate... and that explains my size? haha.

(:

OMFG

2009-02-12T20:27:00.000-08:00

Bangkok trip was cancelled and now i'm in genting! (:
And im staying in a suite. fucking cool.

Have much more to blog about when im back.
For now, i'll just keep you waiting for my suite pictures.

I need to catch some sleep first. I spent my last night
and this morning in the casino. And now i seriously need
to force myself to sleep. To enjoy more later. =D

Blog if im free later.

ciaos,
AM

BK

2009-02-10T23:33:00.000-08:00

genting's maybe gonna be cancelled again. ):
at least im going either bangkok or genting.
which means im still going o

):

2009-02-04T03:01:00.000-08:00

Genting's postponed till nxt weeeekkkkk. ):
DAMN SAD.

i;m cra

Addiction = Disaster

2009-02-02T01:05:00.000-08:00

Cant wait for my4 days genting trip this coming monday.
Hopefully, i can enter the casino. if not, i'll be damn bored..
This trip, we'll definitely do more stuffs. and definitely
more pictures! (:

I think i'm addicted to gambling. like seriously.
Not good not good..
E I THINK i see myself 20 yrs down the road,
gambling like those aunties who frequent the casino ship
and those aunties who sleeps at the jackpot machines.
OMFG.
i will not make that happen. Unless fated. haha

Now, I'm waiting for my fore

DJ Rough!

2009-01-31T01:56:00.001-08:00

Let me introduce to ya all, my coolest brother,

DJ ROUGH! (:
yes, belie

127

2009-01-28T23:39:00.000-08:00

Where's the CNY mood?!!
Where has the massigs only
27SGD. better then nothing right? ha.

im quite lazy to blog more. other days k?

xoxo,
NO CNY MOOD.

CNY

2009-01-24T01:18:00.000-08:00

First of all,
let me wish all a happy chinese new year!
GONG XI FA CAI! WAN SHI RU YI!
That's basically all that i know for chinese blessings.
Well, cant blame right? i stopped studying chinese since
what?, 12 yrs old? HAHA.

I'm having an early home reunion dinner. Cause my parents
are leaving me for vietnam tmr. Mean right?! Leaving me all
alone at home for new yr. ):
But, i shall be understanding.. it's only once a yr that they get
to go overseas.

I cant wait for the dinner. Mum's cooking now and my whole
room smells of food. Let me share with you what i'm having for
dinner tonight k?
1. Duck, Roast Pork, Chicken. (the same every yr.)
2. DRUNKEN PRAWNS. (i bought them live)
3. Broccoli with scallop and mushrooms.
4. Fishball soup.
5. Steamed Fish.

Last but not least,
THE FONDUE FOUNTAIN! sinful......

Tell me the dinner's equivalent to restaurant standard! (:
Mum's the best chef ever.
And it's true that, the best way to win a person's heart,
Is through the stomache!

Okay, Mum's bugging me to help fold the clothes. ):
SHALL BLOG REAL SOON. w/ pictures.

p.s i hope eldest brother will bring his chihuahua over.

xoxo,
The Hungry One

<3 x10000000000...

2009-01-24T01:09:00.000-08:00

My Favourite girl, My Best Friend.
NONE can ever compare. (:

XOXO,
Happy Life.

(:

2009-01-18T05:19:00.000-08:00

Back from a 2days 2 nights trip from genting. (:
okay, it was supposed to be a 3 days 2 nights trip but...
as usual, my well known as late being bf, was yeah., late.

A pity shortie and i didnt camwhore much. not really into
taking pictures nowadays. maybe cos i look fucking fat?
sad, yes definitely. ): We took neoprints thou. and it looks
pretty. =D

First night.
Had supper once we reached. okay, we reached at 12plus midnight!
i was so hungry that i fucking drooled o
unfortunately, we didnt get to enter the casino. i guess maybe cos
there were too little people there so the guards wouldnt
let us in eve them tips. sad right! ):
and... i was so looking forward to gamble till we decided to go buy
poker cards and gamble on our own. drank a little beer then
headed to bed.

1st Day. (supposed to be the 2nd) -.-

-took breakfast cum lunch.
-shortie and i went for hairwash and was cheated of our ringgits.
-played the arcade and took neoprints.
-guys headed to casino again.

so me and shortie went to this safair disco which was so fucking cool.
camwhored a little, drank 4 shots and was nearly high. -.-
met some malaysians. had lots of fun! good thing the guys werent there.
if not, we wont ha

...

2009-01-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

been really effing lazy to blog nowadays. ):
well, since i haven more as the days pass. (:
Who can be like me siol!! lol.

And i just realised some people are still telling their friends abt
the past. or maybe it's just that the friend is telling more people abt it.
make me sound like some third party(or maybe 4th). -.-
Just got to realised the rumor's still spreading. Damn.
the fucking truth is i was ne

Sabaiiiiiiiiii! (:

2009-01-03T00:58:00.001-08:00

Let me introduce to you, my new eye-candy..
Hehheh! M and AM. Pei right? LOL.

Tonight sabai again! woooohoooo. i will fucking buy tons of flowers
for him ONLY! haha.
He can dance and i swear he can fucking sing!
OH MY TIANNNNN!

okay, i better go get more rest for tonight's drinking session
with my belo

Resolutions.

2008-12-31T01:07:00.000-08:00

My year 2009's resolution.
1: Lose weight. Definitely!
2: Sa

19th Birthday at VIVA

2008-12-28T02:33:00.000-08:00

He was supposed to take a jump pose. lol

More pictures coming up......... im too lazy to post sooo many pics at one time so, be patient! (:

19th Birthday at Sabai

2008-12-28T01:23:00.000-08:00

Sabai was fun though not manyy went.
Shortie and me were like almost drooling, looking at the thai singers and dancers.
Damn! M's cute.
check out crystal's blog for more pics. I'm too lazy to post all.

Thank you Shortie for my wonderful bday spent at sabai. (:

-.-

2008-12-11T02:33:00.000-08:00

I sadly announce that my liquid diet is not accomplished.
With mum cooking SO MUCH nice food, i can nvr ever
start on my liquid diet. -.- but at least i ate like half of what
i ate last week. My rice is as little as my dog's food.
So i guess my diet should show me some results. HOPEFULLY!

Love's on his way down to fetch me to work.(:
He's been a darl these days cept for the late-coming part.

Went to Richard's nightclub grand opening last night.
The place is WL, i tell you. FUCKING nice.
And, it's proven that my bf hasnt been calling girls when
he goes to nightclubs for YEARS! and im the Only GIRLFRIEND
that he brought to a nightclub.
Proven by this mamasan working at legend palace. (:
I feel so appreciated for all that i've given to him. :D

Oh and the grand opening was really grand man. Super packed!
As in the rooms ALL FULL! but as usual, all the china girls look fugly.
Had a hard time helping dave ( my bf's friend) choose a girl. Ha.
Anyways, i believe i wont mind going to legend palace with bf in
the future. For once, I nvr felt left out.

And for once, got people call me DA SAO SIOL! haha.
Fucking shiok.

AND AND, i didnt even realise we drank 9 Bottles of cordon bleu!!
Ok, i didnt drink much but 9 bottles for 10 people in the room is
Fucking alot! and plus 1 bottle martell so it's like 10 bottles!
Damn scary. I actually thought they opened only 4 bottles of
cordon bleu. i didnt know till we left the place den dave mentioned
9 bottles.... I was like OMG! siao know!

okok. i better go get ready..

Nuff said,
Am(:

Diet

2008-12-08T06:39:00.000-08:00

Liquid diet starts today! (: Not too long,
I might just faint if i dont eat solid food for more than a week.

I bought like 15 apples and 2 bottles of milk from giant.
and i seriously drank 3 cups of milk and 2 apples
FOR THE WHOLE DAY!

i think it's yesterday that gave me the determination..
I ATE LIKE FUCKING ALOT OF JUNK FOOD! haha.
practically cos i kept telling myself it's my last day of eating
soooo much. ha. so i stuffed myself with brownies and sushi.
i ate much more than usual. bet i gained like 5 kg.. LOL.
but im gonna LOSE all this week. DEFINITELY!

birthday's coming, thats one reason i need to lose weight.
To look good in my clothes. (:

Ok, time for my show. BYE!

XOXO

2008-12-06T00:16:00.000-08:00

life's much more peaceful nowadays.
Guess i cant ha

O-School

2008-12-05T01:07:00.000-08:00

I was browsing through my ex-dance school's

Yours

2008-12-02T22:28:00.000-08:00

I didnt realise how lucky i was,
till the heart to heart talk with lo

Whate

PEACE

2008-11-29T21:41:00.000-08:00

i fucking need peace.

So many things going on between friends.DAMN!

all i need now is peace and quiet. SO PLS!

see what clubbing does to people?!

THATS WHY I FUCKING HATE TO CLUB.

my life was oh so well till all of these started.

i dont want to care but i'm not that heartless, AM I?

Fuck this life. i need peace and quiet. THANK YOU.

Thank god i have a loving and understanding bf.

And liew liew, you'll always have me.

Fuck the rest. let's lead our own lives.

Achievement

2008-11-28T00:06:00.000-08:00

thought about what goals i aim to achie) and tell myself, i got this on my own. I dont ha

Mused.

2008-11-24T23:07:00.000-08:00

Life hasnt been of much wonder these days.

Didnt do anything amazing and nothing amazing happened to me. -.-

Now, i have second thoughts on getting the Xperia 1 phone.

Many have commented that it isnt a good phone.

SO, i've heard abt this cybershot phone, C905.

8 Megapixel camera on the phone itself. Amazing?

I've practically did alot of comparing and i still think X1 looks better.

But functions? C905 is definitely cooler. How ah?! ):

Here, are pictures of the different colours. Very ugly.

Okay, The gold one doesnt look that bad but looks a little ah peh. Doesnt it?

I'll get the black one if given a choice. (: THEN i'll bring it for a little face lift.

Like maybe give it a bling mask or something but then again,

this phone doesnt seem like i can do much to it. ): damn.

SEE what i mean?! I CANT DECIDE.

Help......

OK, shall blog again. CASH is making me busy.

jiangmuyeh

2008-11-22T14:30:00.000-08:00

Everyone loves CASH! (:

Been spending my days like i've got no aim in life.

And come to think of it, yes, i have no fucking goals.

I better start thinking of what to do after i get my results.

I cant go on like this! I want to be of use in the near future.

Dont want to end up shaking my legs at some nearby

coffeeshop, drinking my life away. NO WAY!

ok, enough of my life. I'll know what to do....

AT LEAST, sooner or later.

Now i just gotta wait for my forever-late bf to start on his office.

So i can finally help him with his work.

I TELL YOU, he has been delaying it for like

3 WHOLE FUCKING MONTHS!

but i seriously have turned numb waiting. Since like a year ago.

HAH! And, he should be happy that i've numbed the waiting feeling.

If not, I think we'll still be quarreling very often.

Oh and Ever since bell came back,

I realised that i have more girl friends. Which sadly means,

I had very little or maybe one girl-friend before she came back.

Thats really sad.

But having my that ONE best friend,

ALSO NOT SAY VERY BAD WHAT.

We still have the same amount of fun

Or even more, right? HAH.

ABC is back yo!

xoxo,

jiang mu yeh

-clap-

Shortie

2008-11-20T13:37:00.001-08:00

If only we could stay as happy as this e

CASH

2008-11-16T13:51:00.000-08:00

Photos.......

Went pet farm today and guess what?!

I BOUGHT A FUCKING CUTE POODLE!!

gotta thank my bf for giving me a baby. (:

AND! i'm gonna name it CASH.

but, i gotta sacrifice time for my phone.

like, i gotta wait for my bday den get my phone.

okay, so crystal's bday was so so. she got drunk like totally.

so i left for boat quay with my friends for 2nd round. (:

AMAZINGLY, i didnt get drunk. hah.

Beloved's crashing at my house for a period of time.

We can finally build back our friendship, after so long........

and i seriously cant wait to go collect my cash baby tmr.

OH MY TIAN!!

More photos tmr.

GOOD NIGHT WORLD!

AND,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL LIEW!

2008-11-13T04:28:00.000-08:00

Crashed at Plex's place for 3 whole days. (:
the place is fucking fucking nice. the best condo i've ever been to.
Too bad the place's rental is way too high. ): if not,
can ask my bf to like rent the place. DAMN!

Quite a few photos to upload but all's in beloved's macbook.
gotta wait for her to come my place tonight.

Sunshine's birthday celebration is like tomorrow.
SURE drunk. ha.
Cant fucking wait for Saturday's phuture.
TIME TO PARTY MY LIFE AWAY! (:

(:

2008-11-11T02:51:00.000-08:00

Wasnt able to blog when i was in genting cos,
we couldnt get the hotel we used to rest in.
So poor us had to

my super "ACT CUTE" boyfriend.This lorry was loaded with LOTS of goats.
Not clear cause i wasn't using a SLR camera. (:
I actually missed the first lorry with goats,
bf was dri
FUCKING SCARY! he was like tail gating e

GENTING

2008-11-05T22:43:00.000-08:00

Was supposed to head to genting at 12 noon but
thanks to my belo

X1

2008-11-04T23:58:00.000-08:00

Oh, did i mention my x1 costs like fucking 1300++ bucks!
Crazy, i tell you. I'm not gonna wait till singtel launches the phone,
it's said that the price will drop.
By the time singtel launch the phone, i think next year christmas alr.
Exaggerating but i seriously cant wait any longer. My current phone
is really irritating my life.

Come hell or high water, i'm gonna buy the phone when i'm back from
genting. okay, maybe not me. ha. Bf's gonna win at genting, and get the
bloody 1300++ phone for me! Which is like this coming monday?!
Shiok lahhh. I already made plans on how to bling my phone and make it
look personal. Damn! I cant wait anymore!

Oh, yes, genting tmr with love. (: Just the both of us. Finally, some time
off on our own again. with no worries or problems to think about.
Im definitely going to indulge myself with the spa there. (:

2008-11-03T02:31:00.000-08:00

Best friend's birthday is coming real soon.
stressing on what to get for her. she has almost everything....
So, i really have no idea of what to get for her.
a red packet is too practical, I gotta think really hard.
IDEAS, ANYONE?!

Phuture on her bday.. I seriously cant wait to get high with her. (:

work tonight.. i'm seriously starting to dread of going to work.
DAMN! always have to worry if anyone's gonna come and play games with me
and wait for the time to pass. -.-

think i'll just blog another day. tv time.

ciaos

POOCHES!

2008-11-02T03:52:00.000-08:00

the dog exhibition at simei expo was good.
fucking tough to train a dog to walk on your left.
it's called the obedience exercise. damn!
i really should have video-ed it down.

finally mom's decided to keep a miniature schnauzer.
after so many years of me begging her to keep my fav breed!
actually, i think that's what made me love the dog exhibition.
called up a owner of a few salt&pepper mini schnauzers puppies.
arranged an appointment for viewing the puppies.
7 weeks old! i'll post up pictures once i get hold of it.

i'm not really sure of when i'm gonna buy it over, hopefully soon.
i was supposed to wait for my birthday but i have no bloody patience!
i'm still gonna get it no matter what! (:

i miss you, i really do. ):

why?!

AGAIN

2008-10-31T22:11:00.000-07:00

underneath my skin is it just anger, just frustration?
underneath my skin is it decisions or these feelings?
it always hurts my mind,
it always kills my pride inside.
it always wastes my time
again, again..

again i bleed, again i shake.
again i fall, again i break.

what exactly is wrong now?
i used to be too young, that gives you a reason.
what about now? after all these years...
haven't you hurt me enough in the past?
just as when i'm having the best days of my life,
you have to do this to me..

How could i have trusted you again?
How could i....

Dreams

2008-10-28T04:30:00.000-07:00

just uploaded a few of david's songs.
his voice is the best, i tell you.
(:

had a dream last night about my ex boyfriend, weird.
i wasnt even thinking of him before the dream.
now, the dream really got me missing him.
but no way am i gonna turn back. (:

but still, i'm meeting him for dinner and shopping this sunday.
like finally after so long.

crystal's away for holiday with her caveman,
leaving me alone in viva. ):
well, i'm gonna leave her alone for about 5 days next month.
haha. so, we're fair.

it's late and i cant fall asleep. came back from work early because
there was practically nobody. ):
vehh-ry sad.

ok, time to read up for tmr's paper.
better make use of the time. ciaos!

YEAH

2008-10-24T03:20:00.000-07:00

i'm glad that we're back, bell. (:

kk was mad, fucking opened 3 bottles.
drank like mad yst. eigilators ga
ha.

learned a new retarded game from twinnie yst.
played that "yeah" game with another friend
and today i woke up with bruised legs. ha.
retarded right?

Random

2008-10-16T03:13:00.000-07:00

so, i've taken
certificate and diploma instead of taking my o's.
i can fucking spend the same amount of money for a diploma cert.
fucking wasted okay!
but it's a little too late for regrets.

went out with shortie and 22 yesterday.
they look so perfect together. at least.....
if anyone says he's ugly, i'll definitely not agree.
anybody who hurts crystal, will look damn ugly,
really!
ha. but i'm pretty sure 22 is the one for her.

well, had a long talk with shortie at my place the night before.
we were talking abt getting married together,
but it's not impossible.
i dont know if i'm e